i woke up this morning very reluctantly. it was not an easy morning. the first thing i did was weigh myself, thinking i did pretty well this weekend with eating and working out last night, nope. it definitely set the tone for my day. it really made me depressed. i feel like i've been working so very hard for an entire month and i have virtually nothing to show for it. it's frustrating beyond belief.
so i went to work with my head hanging. i started to develop a headache and i was just plain cranky. it got to the point where i needed to leave work early just to stop tears from flooding my eyes.
going home was a good choice. i got to nap, i avoided super snowy roads. i regret not being able to go to the gym, and not running on the treadmill here, but i just needed a break.
what's not helping is how i'm treating tim during these times. i know he deserves much better than i have been able to give him as of late. it scares me that one day he's not going to want to deal with it any more. i'm so lucky.
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