i think this'll be a good way to get my thoughts out of my head. ever since my dad died i feel like i have a lot of pent-up feelings that i know i can share with anyone, but i feel bad doing so. i know i shouldn't feel bad - but i do. people have enough stress and sadness in their lives and my pity party shouldn't be something they need to deal with as well. when it gets really bad, of course i'll talk to someone, but i have these feelings and thoughts every.single.day, and i can't expect anyone to listen to the same thing everyday.
plus, i can't talk about these things out loud because before it reaches my lips i begin to cry. i'm not writing these things to get pity or sympathy or pull any sort of guilt trip card on anyone, i'm literally just writing to get the out of my head.
i don't want this all to just be about my dad, though i believe thats the source of 99.9% of my sadness and stress lately, but i want it to be about anything.
lately i've felt so out of it. for obvious reasons and not so obvious reasons. i'm still trying to figure out those not so obvious reasons.
i'm excited to get underway and to keep track of my mental improvement as it comes. hopefully this helps! :)
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