Just Tired.

I am completely burnt out. It really sucks, because I just got back from my honeymoon, I really shouldn't want to go right back out on another vacation, but I do. It's brutal. Work is terrible. My job is changing. I am being put in a position where I will be doing the job of the person currently above me, plus my job, with no help, and I will not be making as much money as the person currently above me. Can anyone explain how that is fair? I'll be doing twice the work for less pay? It's infuriating. It really makes it very difficult to go in every day, that's for sure. On top of that I'm dealing with some personal things that are really making me frustrated and exhausted.

Lately, it's really felt like there is nothing that goes smoothly for me. I feel like every single task I do during the day has to be complicated. It's exhausting.

I just realized that I will not complete my student loan payments or another twenty years. Twenty years! Really I am just starting to get afraid that things are going to always be this tough. That I'll always hate my job. That Tim will always be frustrated at his job. That we'll never have the money we need. How will we ever have kids?

I feel like I could just sleep for days. Thank goodness for weekends.

On a much, much brighter note, my sister and her fiance have been very friendly lately! This past 4th of July weekend we hung out twice at non-family events! It was really a lot of fun and it made me really, really happy. I am so glad that we are starting to become friends.