busybee

Almost a month since my last post: solid proof that I am indeed a terrible blogger, as if you needed any proof at all.

This year is honestly just flying by. It's really scary, I feel like I just celebrated Christmas or at least like I was just counting the days until it was warm enough for me to throw on a skirt, but here I am, October. It's unreal. I've been both looking forward to and dreading the fall this year. I love the fall. Knowing that it's October makes me smile, no matter how crappy my day has been. I love the leaves changing and the smell of fire, the pumpkins, the soup, the haunted houses, the Halloween costumes, I love all of it. This particular October, however, is way too busy for my liking. I feel like I have to squeeze in all the things I want to do with all the things I have to do. Don't get me wrong, I want to do the things I have to do...I just wish they were more spread out.

So far I have gotten through two of the toughest weekends. Last weekend consisted of my aunt's wedding, followed by a day at the spa for Julie's birthday, followed be a drive down to Maryland for Erin's wedding shower. All of these things were a lot of fun, and I took a step back and enjoyed them all, however, it was quite exhausting. This past weekend was Katie's wedding up in NY. Another exhausting weekend. Lots of driving, but all in all a great time. I was able to spend time with a lot of the people that I love, enjoy wonderful food, drinks, and for the most part, relax. It's funny though, how even relaxing things can tire you out.

Both of the weddings were gorgeous and happy weddings. First was my aunt's. It was nice to see my whole family enjoy themselves and let loose. Katie's wedding was a bit more stressful, but, it too, was a blast. I was able to spend a very nice weekend with my fiance, see a new place, wear a new dress, see old friends.

Coming up I have two bachlorette parties, a communion party/date weekend/church meeting, a wedding shower, and a halloween party, and that's only October! In November I have two charity walks, one to photograph and one to take part in! I've got my sister's birthday, a wedding, Thanksgiving...

I've talked my family into doing the Heart Walk on November 13th in memory of my dad! I am really excited about this and so far we've reached the goal of 10 walkers! To help contribute, click on the link on the right side of my blog!

One thing that all these events have done for me is make me incredibly excited for my own wedding! While it's fun to enjoy the happiness of all of my friends, the excitement of knowing that this will all be for me soon is a lot to contain! Sitting with Tim watching people I love vow to love eachother forever just makes me giddy with excitement. I am the luckiest girl on the planet and I wouldn't trade any of it for the world.

Okay, mushy part over.

Being so busy has really put a damper on my creative juices. I don't really mind, because I honestly don't think I'd even have the energy to think about art right now. I haven't painted since my last fiasco and while I took pictures for my aunt's wedding, I wasn't really feeling all artsy about it. Even when I was toying with the pictures in Photoshop, I was only able to get through about 20 of them before my brain was just fried.

Not only am I busy with other peoples events, I'm going crazy still trying to get things together for our own wedding. Saving money is virtually impossible right now, so there's the stress of that, I'm also starting to browse invitations. Wow, are invitations expensive! Sheesh! After about a week of completely stressing over the possible cost of invitations, I think I was able to figure out a few things that will substantially cut my costs. Now it's just about picking the right ones.

We also went to get out wedding bands not too long ago. I cried afterwards. Not because I'm sappy, but because I was certainly not expecting to spend that much money on my wedding band. I'm at the point where I'm just saying, "well, whatcha gonna do?" because there is just no way around spending money.

Next is honeymoon. Good God I can't handle thinking about it! Tim has been good about it and kind of calming me down when I'm on the verge of a panic attack. We looked up Italy tour information and I couldn't even continue to look, even though, what we were looking at was completely reasonable. But it's our honeymoon, there's no reason we should settle. Be reasonable, yes; settle, no.

And so, right now I'm just trying really hard to relax, not worry about money, and enjoy these events. Money will come, sleep will come, but for now, I have to embrace the friends, family, love and laughter that's going to get me through until Christmas time, and that's what I plan to do.